Just a Fool

Another shot of whiskey please bartender
Keep it coming til I don't remember at all
How bad it hurts when you're gone (no no no no)

Turn the music up a little bit louder
Just gotta get past the midnight hour (uh huh)
Maybe tomorrow it won't be this hard

Who am I kidding?
I know what I'm missing

Oh, I had my heart set on you
But nothing else hurts like you do
Who knew that love was so cruel (yeah, yeah, yeah)
And I waited and waited so long
For someone who'll never come home
It's my fault to think you'd be true (yeah, yeah)
I'm just a fool
(Yeah)

[Blake Shelton]
I say that I don't care
And walk away whatever
And I tell myself we were bad together (uh huh)
But that's just me trying to move on without you

But who am I kidding?
I know what I'm missing

I, I had my heart set on you
But nothing else hurts like you do
Who knew that love was so cruel (yeah, yeah, yeah)
And I waited and waited so long
For someone who'll never come home
It's my fault to think you'd be true (yeah, yeah)
I'm just a fool

For holding onto something that's
Is never ever gonna come back
I can't accept that it's lost

I should've have let it go
Held my tongue
Kept my big mouth shut
'Cause now everything is just wrong, wrong, wrong

I'm just a fool
A fool for you
I'm just a fool

I, I had my heart set on you
But nothing else hurts like you do
Who knew that love was so cruel (yeah, yeah, yeah)
And I waited and waited so long
For someone who'll never come home
It's my fault to think you'd be true (yeah, yeah)
I'm just a fool
I'm just a fool
I'm just a fool

It's my fault to think you'd be true (yeah, yeah, yeah)
I'm just a fool

連詩雅 Shiga - 好好過 Movin' On

 睡覺都哭泣委曲求全 博不到你可憐
令眼圈黑黑被擔心我的親友看見
還受到我眼淚感染　關心我又驚我討厭
難道我要再為你而苦戰
獨處於家中一般快樂 再不與你關連
善變的青春避不開要講一句再見
忙著記錄你那片段 看不出關係很遠
誰又要我記著我還失戀 


還要生活　別再三失眠
難為善良好友憂心每天通宵的致電
隨便你走　仍能愉快的生存
修補我裂痕給我活過找個起點

贏了經驗　沒有輸尊嚴
如常熱情工作應該慶祝衷心許個願
年紀太小 人人受過傷無可避免
明日我便能振作　成熟半點 

沒你的冬天都不算壞　我取暖有火柴
為我煲一杯熱的鮮奶都溫暖世界
拿逝去情人節放大　每一天一樣不快
其實我去抱著我能開解 

還要生活　別再三失眠
如常熱情工作應該慶祝衷心許個願
年紀太小　人人受過傷無可避免
明日我便能振作 成熟半點 

還要生活　別再三失眠
難為善良好友憂心每天通宵的致電
隨便你走　仍能愉快的生存
修補我裂痕給我活過找個起點

贏了經驗　沒有輸尊嚴
如常熱情工作應該慶祝衷心許個願
逃出困境　重頭為我的人生自勉
明日偶遇誰愛我
然後發展

連詩雅 Shiga - 到此為止

 

好好分開應要淡忘　你找到你伴侶
重臨舊情境　我卻哭得出眼淚
時常在聯想　你會溫馨的抱她午睡
然而自己現在沒任何權利　再抱怨一句

我再沒勇氣向你講舊時　沒有勇氣相愛另一次
為你將睡眠忘記　通宵傾談但已經頓成往事

還是記起　無道理的對罵是年紀小的不智
今天你能忘記　只得我懷念多麼諷刺

輾轉反側將愛活埋　要把你印象減退
重提舊人物　我卻開心得帶恐懼
年月是流水　我也相識一個成長伴侶
殘酷或許是對象面形容貌　也似你少許

我再沒勇氣向你講舊時　沒有勇氣相愛另一次
為你將睡眠忘記　通宵傾談但已經頓成往事

還是記起　無道理的對罵是年紀小的不智
今天你能忘記　只得我懷念多麼諷刺

如何逃避這戀愛故事　仍然說得多細緻
重覆的震撼　餘震未停止

我再沒勇氣向你講舊時　沒有勇氣相愛另一次
為你將睡眠忘記　通宵傾談但已經頓成往事

還是記起　無道理的對罵是年紀小的不智
今天再回頭看　這一個男孩子
我怕面對你說到生活時　後悔過往的幼稚爭議
沒你的動人時節　喧譁歡騰亦已經並無意義
閒話到此　遺憾到此結論是回憶總要到此
雖則你難忘記　這戀愛遺物終需棄置

 再好好過日子

Moving On

People usually say this (quote). If you love someone, let them go. If they return, they were always yours. If they don’t, they never were.

I know it's easy to say but when it comes to reality, its not as easy as we thought of, especially your fisrt love.
That kind of feeling is extreme awful, like tears will drop off automatically whenever you're alone.
And could barely sleep eventhough you feel exhausted and tired.
The worse part is you can't really cry it out just because you don't really want your parents, siblings or friends to worry about you.

When you lost the one you really love, and the reason not because he/she betray you, how would you feel?
For me, the feeling is like the a bullet has been shot straight throught your heart.
Now then i realise why people commit suicide. Can't deny that commit suicide ever appeared in my thought but when calm down myself and think about people who love you, it will automatically shut it off.

Well, i am a typical scorpio, i don't really share and i don't really know how to share my feeling to others. Sometimes i feel like sharing with a person but yet i don't really know how to start the conversation and i don't really want my friend to worry about me.

it has been few days i didn't really sleep, eventhough i sleep, it was like sleep awhile and then will wake up automatically. it so called insomnia i guess.
i've no idea how many pain-killer i have swallowed.
and now.. yeah i can't sleep again, so i decide to drink some beer and blog instead of pain-killer. (blood-circulation)

I know i should have moving on, so i have deleted all the pictures in my phone and computer.
Removing all the mementos, it doesnt sound fun i know but it is essential.
Moving on is all about living in the future, not the past. Remove doesn't mean destroy i think, at least i have it all and store in my heart.

It is better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all. This is a better quote to live by in love that i've learned.

And now i believe that all i need to time to get this wound heal.

:D

doing nothing in the office...

office is under BNM investigating..

operation and transaction are all close now. 

how am i going to survive in this office without doing anything...

alright, i brought lots of CD and DVD...

just to kill my boredom... : D

Busy, Bored, Random stuff

from long hair to short hair. latest picture of me.

short hair is very convenient for me eventhough sometimes i do miss having a long straight hair like last time. 

a friend of mine called Jia. she's cute isn't she??

Jia, thank you for everything!

i heart you!

a gift from my friend! she knows that i like spongebob and she said i look alike spongebob! 

i was like -.-"  my face doesnt look square and yellowish though.... hahaha

hugging my big spongebob sleep everynight...

my mom always complain this spongebob is too big and need so much space to place it especially my bed.

sometimes this naughty big spongebob causing ppl fall down.. haha.. im serious.. cause im one of the victim

these are my new pets winter white and roborovski.

brownie and chockie!!!

brownie is so so fat!!!! how cute she is!!! 

 2 of this roborosvki is so loving!! :D

whikie has borned 2 babies!!! the babies are so tiny and cute!!

but i still dont get it why some people find it very disgusting...

nah.. i dont care i just love them..

i went to ranau over night there with my collegues...

it was so fun, very nice scenery and view from our room balcony...

and we did the sky lantern.

everyone needs to write their wishes on the paper...

it was my first time did the sky lantern seriously!!! 

me likey!!!

photo captured by my phone!

well, thats all for now!

gonna get back to work!! :)

peace!

Wello

 hello fella, its been awhile.. oppss or i should say its been a long time i didn't update here.

i guess its about 6months time i haven't updated my blog.. wow..

as you know that time passes so fast nowadays, and lots of things happened for the past few months.

i've celebrated my 21st birthday, received presents from the loved people..

too many things happened until i don't know where to start from. :)

got a new job which work with gold investment office.

it sounds good right?? but not as good as you thought of.. i mean it like seriously..

the best damn thing work with this company is.. sometimes you can fly to KL just to attend an event and shop like nobody business (if only have extra money)

and you can go to club, sitting at VIP table.. surrounded by bodyguards.

yea bodyguard!!!! if you wanna go toilet, he will definately bring you to the toilet and wait you outside then bring you back to the sit... how awesome right???

it was weird for me though because it was my first time..

hopefully there will be another time!!!!

 oh... i miss my long hair seriously!!!

oh ya.. i've just cut my hair, i don't know what happened to me...

or maybe i wanna try something new..

having a short hair is good and its more convenient to wash blow and everything..

and the hair!! my hair grow so fast.. feel like i want to cut my hair again... 

should i??? :)

i am still on office hour.. and i cant be here long.

so i will update again soon...

:)